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you know what the strange thing is? I couldn't eat much yesterday (didn't eat finner) nor today (woke up at 11, but didnt eat lunch). At first I thought I was coming down with anorexia nervosa since I didn't feel like eating ANYTHING (i eventually did eat something but) but then again, im so fat so no.

but yeah, now i know why. it was a sub-conscious reason you know? the reason behind me losing my appetite is probably because of my friend (lets just call her lily because I don't want to betray her trust). I'm scared lily would try something during the weekend. I'm also not the only one fearing this because on Friday, when I took the bus home, I sat next to my friend whom was another good friend of Lily. She had tears in her eyes during the whole bus ride and said she was frightened Lily might try third attempt.

She's not the only one, I know that the rest of us are worried sick about her. I've prayed as much as I can for her and tomorrow, since I'm going to church and it's a Sunday, I'm gonna pray extra hard and hope for the best. Since Lily is a Christian too, she might not try anything tomorrow...but who knows about today?

on a better note, I watched "Ever After" today (it was on TV Channel Ten). It wasn't as good as before I watched it but I taped it anyway. I sense the reason it wasn't as good was because my mind was on Lily. Pray she'll be okay for me please...

posted by yupkigirl__ a.k.a. serena ^^ @ 12:17:00 AM